The Daily #2 – Why I need to fantasize about zombie apocalypses DIFFERENTLY from now on


I stared at the screen of my phone for a second, waiting on a draft of an article to load. Then I realized I hadn’t written anything yet.

Journaling, eh? It’s tough.

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XP-HNTR – Movement. January 9.


I got really excited to buy a gaming pc once again. What spurred me on in particular was the discovery that my motherboard, memory, and processor are all still useable. I would not need to buy new ones. I would then only need to buy a video card and a power supply. A solid state drive would be nice too. And oh, would a higher-wattage power supply not fit in my oddball of a case? Bummer, guess I’ll have to pick one of those out too.

Finally, at the end of the road called “I guess I’ll need more than I expected,” I reached the crossroad of “this is going to cost more than you initially planned to spend, will you buy it anyway?” And I guess my answer is “No.”

I will not buy upgrade my pc right now because I have phone bills to pay and a few more Christmas presents to order. I can, however, buy a new tv from which I can play games more comfortably, from the comfort of my bedroom rather than the cold, dark basement where the 60-inch tv ended up when my grandparents moved in.

I’ve got Dragon Age: Inquisition, Grand Theft Auto V, Tomb Raider, COD:AW, and a whole bunch of old games. Albeit, all on the PS3 and the graphics are sort of tiring to the eyes but I think I’ll manage. It’s only until I make enough to make my PC one of my main consoles.

Is that really what I want, though? Sure, when it comes to RPGs and most indie games, the PC would definitely be the place to be. But I grew up a console peasant. In FPSes, I live and die by my thumbsticks. Hrmng, what a question to come up against.

What are my goals or priorities right now? Do I want to try live-streaming or making YouTube videos? What’s my niche? What do I want to write?

Who knows?

Whatever it turns out to be, at least one thing is certain: I have to keep at it. I have to continually be trying new things, staying on the move.

With that said, I guess I should see it as a blessing, then, that I’m not comfortable with where I am. If I need to keep moving then it helps that I don’t exactly feel comfortable in the place I currently occupy. To still be wandering is better than to find a nice oasis to stagnate in, still hundreds of miles from paradise but at the very least, sort of comfortable.

It’s a blessing that I’m not sure what to do next. It means that every answer is right.

Welcome to Crêpe’s Canvas, Every8ody


The weirdest thing just happened to me. 8ut what did I expect, really? I decided to speak her language instead of English like we usually do, to avoid any misunderstandings; ’twas a conversation that I only wanted to have once. Serious stuff. 8ut since I don’t usually speak anything 8ut English, the seriousness got turned way 8ack. So something that could’ve 8een tense and anxiety-ridden ended up a fun exercise.

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Do video games teach us not to motivate ourselves?


Video games, at least the mainstream formula for them, it seems, are made to motivate and then challenge people. They pull people towards a goal then push them away, never enough to turn them away, but just enough that they are never satisfied, that the player is always making an effort.

The thing is, the way a lot of games motivate people isn’t very conducive to success with the way things now work, as I’ve been told to see it. But before I talk about the “new society,” I should explain what I mean by “the old one.” Continue reading