I took last semester off of highschool after dropping all of my classes halfway to winter break. The counselor told me that when people lose sight of who they are, they shut down emotionally, socially, professionally, and that’s what might’ve happened to me when I started skipping weeks of school at a time. I’m due to return to school this following semester where I’ll be taking the bare minimum of classes, only the ones I need to graduate. I’d like to graduate with people my age. I’ll take university prerequisites next year.
Junior High is a blur now. Most of highschool is a blur as well. Haha. I think it’s because I haven’t cared about anything until now. I can try to guess why but I don’t like thinking about life anymore. Thinking things through used to mean finding out what I could do about them. Nowadays, all it does is show me how little I can do. That’s not what I need to know. What I need to know now is what I can do.
I don’t like thinking about my past, which is fine because I don’t need to anymore. I need to start thinking about the future.